I've gone now. I've gotten on the plane and set off to get unknown and
I'm terrified. I don't know what's going happen. The coming year is looming
before me and I'm standing here, shaking like a Chihuahua from excitement and
fear. I'm worried about getting along with my roommates - making friends has
always been challenging for me and I always feel like there's some secret to
the social scene I'm missing out on. I'm worried about figuring out the London transportation
system - whenever there's something the internet can't explain, it's a cause
for worry. I'm worried about setting up my bank account and managing my money -
since forever I've always had a safety net where these things are concerned
called Mom and Daddy. I'm worried about my first few days teaching - the
"what if" list on this one is perpetual. For example, what if the
students don't respect me, don't listen to me? Or what if my teaching style
doesn't compute to British expectations?
The one thing I'm not worried about, however, is whether or not I'll
be able to tackle this new chapter in my life and find success. I've never
worried about that, not once, and there's a very, very good reason for that.
Have you met my parents?
My mom is fierce and protective – total Warrior Queen – when it comes
to her kids. She’d take on the Roman army in the morning and the Huns in the
evening if it meant getting us something we needed and, heck, sometimes just
what we wanted. Bullies, teachers, coaches, schools, school boards, ministries
of education, fire-breathing dragons – she’s tackled all that and more on our
behalf. And she’s kept the house clean, food in the fridges, suppers on the
plate and, heck, for a hobby she redesigned her church’s sacrament preparation
program. To say nothing of what she went through with our attitudes, be it my
sister’s temper, my sarcasm (Oi – don’t go giving me that look; downplaying is
a writer’s privilege) or my brother’s crudeness. Plus our medical problems,
which were far from few. Plus volunteering at our schools. Plus just hanging
out with us in between everything else. If my siblings and I weren’t living
proof to the contrary, I’d think she was a machine.
And then there’s the other half of me – my dad. Also known as the guy
who works nine hour days as a mechanic at a car dealership and goes into work
in the middle of blizzards to do snow removal, all so that his son can have
soccer practice, his daughter could have a car and his eldest (that would be
me, btw) could, oh, jump a plane to London for a year or two. He also does all
the house and car repairs himself, a jack of all trades by necessity – the
repairman budget was the first to go. There was never anything we wanted we
couldn’t have sooner or later; he always did his damnedest to make sure our
childhoods would be just as fun and memorable as our friends.
Now, just imagine tossing all these character traits together in a
bottle, shaking it up, and squirting out three kids. You’ve got to figure the
result to be pretty stubborn, not to mention determined. Even if she doesn’t
quite realize it yet.
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